Forever Forgotten

Trying to get comfortably numb, but it does not soothe the pain in my spirit. There is no balm or elixer, no medicine, nor magick that can release, and no oasis for escape. The light is gone, I grope in the darkest dark, only time fills this void. My world, torn apart by the storms, turned to dust and blown away by the wind. I cry out, but no one hears. Fire burns deep within, the agony is never ending. Deliver me out of this pain! So, it is nothingness that is my lot, I accept this, and float away, all that remains is the echo of my soul cries, the emptiness fills my eyes. Away I float, to the land of the Forever Forgotten.

Hiatus

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                  I've taken a slight hiatus from doing my blog because of things going on, such as moving, issues at home, etc etc etc. But, I'm back now and ready to hit the print, so keep your eyes out tonight and tomorrow morning, as I will be writing again tonight after I get home from my daily grind. Love, Light, and Blessings to each of my followers!

Barren Land Of The Heart

The sands of time cannot erase
what was left for me to chase.
My heart is laid waste and nothing left to spare,
only desolation left in the land laid bare.
Only sand is left over there.
In this land of the heart,
I thought we'd never part.
But I'm left to surmise
what I truly despise.
Loneliness is killing me,
this is what I am to be.
A lone wolf in disguise,
the world laughs at my demise.
If I fall again,
this will be my one true sin.
Now circle is cast,
will true love be that will last.
My heart beats true ,
for it beats only for you.
If you love me, so be it.
If not, then I must leave it.
My heart is laid waste,
so now death I must taste.
I will be reborn
and leave this life of scorn.

Suicide Solution

Drowning in a sea of despair,
I wonder if there is someone that will truly care.
Will someone hear my cry?

For if not, tonight I will die.
All is lost, I'm beyond all hope.
There is nothing in this life
with which I can cope.
I'm at the point of no return,
my will to live is gone
and my fire no longer burns.
The blackness that is now before my eyes
is where my spirit shall dwell.
There seems to be only one way to end my hell.
With a pull of the trigger, it can all end.
It's the only way to stop my soul from continuing to descend.
To leave this earth, and enter the light
seems to be the only way to end my plight.
I've done my best, but I could not stand.
The pain is far to much for me.
This is the only solution that I see.
So now it ends with a gun in my hand.
I can only hope that you will understand.

I Stand Alone

The battle has raged and many were there,
bombs burst as the volleys flew through the air.
Many have fought and many fell,
so much wide spread destruction,
this truly must be hell.
Those who I thought were by my side
were actually the enemy, in a mask they hide.
They were stealthy and their ways were cunning,
they came as friends and were hard to see coming.
In the end the truth was known,
my enemies were slain and I stand alone.

Life is hard and sometimes I fall under the load,
always wandering down that dark and lonely road.
Love is gained and love is lost,
and friends will come and will go.
Some offer their support and help,
but what will be the cost?
No, I will my do best to stand on my own.
Because in reality I must rely upon myself,
in the end I stand alone.

When you see my scars and the lines in my face,
see me for who I am and put yourself in my place.
When you see the frown that I sometimes wear,
think for a few minutes as to why it's there.
I still fight with what's inside of me,
a warrior spirit is what you will see.
When life is over and they bury me below,
my epitaph will be..I stand alone!

Awakening Love

The drumming cadence begins,
like the beat of the shaman's drum.
The chant of the soul
is as soft as a hum.
Blood begins to flow
steady through the veins,
as my soul lets go of the reins.
Soaring higher than the highest skies,
my heart beats faster as I look into your eyes.
Your smile, this is true beauty indeed.
Your love is all that I will ever need.
You take my hand,
and let me know that everything will be alright.
When we are apart,
you are my dream every night.
Without you, nothing ever seems right.
We walk side by side,
hand in hand.
When I look into your eyes,
I truly understand.
I understand what love means to me.
I understand that this is how life should be.
For when I'm with you,
I know that everything will be alright.
I know that when I hold you in my arms,
that this is what truly feels right.
Nothing else will ever do,
for nothing is worth existing without you.
You are reason, and you are rhyme.
You are my love, and you are my time.
For you give me breath, and you give me life.
When I look into your eyes, I forget all of my strife.
You bring me joy, and I no longer feel pain.
If it wasnt for you, life would be vain.
There would be no reason or wisdom if it wasn't for love.
Love is what sustains the universe, and the sky up above.
Life without love is a life not worth living.
Love is what inspires us, and makes a joy out of giving.
Love is something that you can only have if you give.
Love is the reason why we live.

Eyes Of Love

When you look into my eyes, you can see so much. If you look deep enough, you can feel my touch. You can see my heart beat, how it races for you. You can see my blood flow, you can see how my life is being lived for you. My soul screams your name! Every moment away from you, is an eternity of sheer pain! When you look into my eyes, you'll see the tears I shed are for you. It tears me apart to see what you have been through. My eyes see what was done in the past, how we were prepared for each other, so our love would last. My eyes see the future, and what it holds. How life will be with each other, as our lives unfold. We see how things were planned, how we were guided from above. We can see everything, how it is a master plan from above. For as we look at each other, we see with the eyes of love.

Only Lonely

As I walk down the street, there are plenty of people to meet. They dont have the time, they are in such a rush to get nowhere, yet somewhere. Too busy, they walk on by, no smile or friendly expression, no words to greet, only a sigh. Another day, another dollar, they say. Dont have time for friends or family, got to make that hustle. Got to chase that dream, and make that money, but what is the price that they pay? Their families are drifting apart, their friends fade away. They feel the pain and the sting of relationships gone awry, but they dust it off and say it's the way its supposed to be. They dont have time to cry, to love, to feel, they just have to hurry to make that deal. In their heart, they pine for a better day. They say to themselves, it's the price I have to pay. I'm only lonely, I'll get over it. Then, they continue on, rushing here and there, trying to make that dollar. Only when life is near it's end, as they draw their last breath, they see that they have no one to surround them with love, then the words come back to haunt them as they breathe their last..."I'm only lonely".

When I Think Of You

When I think of you, light shines through and fills my soul. It's the gentle breeze, that kisses as by me it blows. It's the beautiful flowers in the field, that open up from the sun's first kiss. It's the bird's song, as it fills the air, it's what makes my heart beat faster, chasing what is true and fair.
When I think of you, I think of worlds on high, and the stars as they are painted in the sky. When I think of you, I think of passion, that is feirce as the mighty thunder, and the lightning as it streaks across the sky. I think of romance, I think of love, I think of what it must be like, to be the apple of your eye. To be your knight in shining armour, how I would treat you as a queen. I would be at your beck and call, only at your feet would I fall. When I think of you, I think of all the good that can be. When I think of you, I think of you right beside me. When I think of you, I dream of you in my arm, the smile on your face that would only be for me. When I think of you, I think of spring, how everything is made new and all the joy you bring. I think of all the sorrow, and pain you must have felt, and I think how I would do my best to make sure they never torture you again, the sad memories of life back then. When I think of you, I think of the future, and what it will be. Surely trials will come, but with you, I will always be free. When I think of you, I think of all the things that bring joy, and make my spirit sing.

Feel The Madness

As I sit and stare, I feel it start. First the numbness, then the rapid beating of my heart. My breathing increases, back and forth my eyes dart. My brain goes into overdrive, painful thoughts flood my head. Decisions made, it's either me or someone else that will end up dead. I cant silence the many voices in my mind, I feel control slipping away. As I start to panic, my mind is

a flutter. I see things that are not there, to myself I start to mutter. I breath threats and death and despair to the innocents that are there. I feel myself slip away, the demon within is now here to stay. This demon takes all control, I fade to black as if I crawled in a hole. The pain of my mind gone wrong is beyond all compare, so come and try to fix me, if you dare. The voices I hear give me commands, I must kill and do as they command. Bloodlust is in full control, I have no choice. The pain of insanity is more severe if I disobey the voice. The sanitarium is where I need to be, locked up in there is the only way you are safe from me. They dont help, they cannot cure. Is it any benefit to me? I'm not sure. But what I do know is that they understand very well, that to keep you safe, I must be kept there while I suffer my hell. Feel my pain, feel my panic, understand for a moment my pain. For if you do, you will never look at me the same.

The Storm Of Heart Break

Dark clouds cover over the scape of the mind, lightning flashes and the boom of thunder echoes. Waves toss, threatening to drown, ridges of the heart start to fall down. The Sea of Doubt starts to rise, undercurrents of pain try to pull me under. My heart beats faster, trying to stay afloat. The smoke of once great passion, fills my nostrils and burns my lungs, my eyes see the life of love pass before me. The center of the storm brings a strange calm, the hurricane of pain swirls around me. Soon, the final wave of pain and suffering will surely see my love's demise. As I slip under the waves, my heart grows weary, then turns cold, then to stone. The hurricane of heartbreak soon subsides, the land of the heart is laid waste. Now, only dust is left for all to taste. The flames are gone, the heart is stone. Now, to rebuild and heal, is mine alone.

Opening Heart

Opening Heart

I hear the crack and squeak, then light from beneath. The door is opening, light bursting through. A shadow in the light, soon I realize that it is you. Blood begins to rush, ears roar to life. Finally, joy comes and there is the end of all strife. Yes, I walk through the rays of light that shine in. I bask in the glow, and feel the warmth from within. Love floods the floors, and I try to swim, but instead I sink to the bottom, but there is no harm. As I reach out for you, I grab your arm. We walk side by side, through the trials and toils, but victory is ours, and we share all the spoils. Love is what drowns us, and love is what saves us. We cannot fall or fail. Love is what carries our boat, the wind in our sails. We drift onward into the night, and through out life, we know that we are what is right. The door is completely open, waiting for you to walk in. Now, a life of happiness is what we begin.

Soul's Awakening

From darkness, a light breaks through. Rays of light beam in, and eye's begin to see. From the heaviness of void comes lightness, a feeling of being free. I feel the lift, a whooshing sound roars in my ears. The light is bright, but does not hurt my eyes. Soon everything seems to be crystal clear, a clarity I've not seen before.  And in my ears, there is no longer a roar. But words are not spoken, yet I can hear the voice inside me, yet not of me, sounds crystal clear. As the light envelops, I feel nothing but love. Inside I hear the voice say to me, " Come to me, oh child that I love". Without resistance, I float on over to the place where there is nothing but love, peace, and calmness. I hear the voice vibrate inside me, "Welcome my child. Come here beside me, stay with me awhile. Tell me of your life, what did you learn? Your knowledge, your experiences is what I yearn. Tell me of your life, and pain and suffering. Tell me how you triumphed, how in victory you came to me. Your place is here, in this land of love. Stay by my side, and let me learn of you and the lessons you were taught. Tell me how you discovered that I was here, and the power you had within. Stay here and tell me everything. I in turn will teach you the great mysteries you have yet to learn". As I took my place, questions did not need to be asked. My entire being opened up, and revealed all my past. When all was said and done, I started to learn the mysteries and wisdom, of which I could not learn on my own. Forever I will remain, this is my eternal home.

Dance Of The Twin Flame

As I look into your eyes, I see your light. I hold your hand in mine, and everything feels so right. We step together, to a tune only our hearts can hear. When we are with one another, there is no more fear. We speak not, but yet we know. As the tune in our hearts plays, we simply follow. We dance the dance of love and life, we smile at each other regardless if victory, toil, or strife. Time is no longer our master, as we release the binds. We flow endlessly, together forever in the universe, free of confines. As we grow older and wise, we dont look any different in each other's eyes. For to me, you are just as beautiful as when we first met. Memories takes me back to when we held each other, watching the sunset. Then to that first kiss, when we held each other, oh the bliss! In my heart, my love for you is still new. And when I look into your eyes, I see that it is the same with you. My heart is locked, and you are the only one who holds the key. When I see you smile, I know that you feel the same about me. Words are not needed, for we both speak the language of the heart and love. It is a language that others do not know like we do, for ours is from above. From realms that others rarely reach, it is not a language that one can teach. It is a language that only twin flames can know. Our hearts beat as one, our love is a continuous flow. No fear of drowning, no fear of pain. No one can assail us, their efforts will be in vain. As we stand together side by side, we will continue forever and in us, love will always abide. No one can know what we know, for those are secrets only you and I share. We show the world that the love we have is rare. As we dance the dance of the twin flames, our hearts beat as one and we are free from all care. Come and dance with me for you shall see, my twin flame you will always be.